I couldn't have picked a better partner for myself if God have given me creative rights and freedom to do so. Besides the fact he's a guitar player, has the world's best hair, and is the most loving, kind, and honest man I've ever met, Phillip makes me laugh harder than I ever have. He's got a lot of one liners- even more than Triple H, but recently one of my favorites has become "go to your womb."
I am blessed with an office in our Joshua Tree house after two years of working from a tourbus bunk and I wanted to break myself out of the habit of saying I was going into my "dungeon."
A dungeon symbolizes the darkness and the void and like most of us we think of "dark" as being "evil" and forgot that we actually and physically create from the darkness, from the womb.
The womb is where life is created. The womb is darkness. The energy that creates life is natural and innocent not dirty or shameful.
We're all in the "dark" right now and the "unknown" of when schools or work will open, when venues will allow live music again or when masks will stop being worn. Are we embracing the unknown or trying to control it?
When a wom(b)an is pregnant, she can't control how her body creates the child, she can only control how she's taking care of herself while nature runs its course.
Are you taking care of yourself as nature is running its course right now? When the news looks more like a scripted storyline the Vince McMahon wrote than reality?
When the darkness comes to the surface, especially with something as inhumane as human trafficking, we get scared. We think that the dark is only evil. We forget that from the darkness we get to create, and we get to create a world where children, women, and men, are safe from evil, especially human trafficking.
When Phillip playfully jokes with me to "go to my womb," I walk in my office proudly. I use that space as a place to create, to gestate, and to birth new ideas into reality. The space of the unknown world doesn't feel like a dungeon but womb: a place of hope and creation, not a place of fear and shame. This silly but loving reminder invites me one day at a time, to turn up the volume on love and turn down the volume on fear. I'm not fearless, I'm fearlyss, and here, we feel the fear and do the right thing anyway.